MOOD: Peaceful
So it begins, this is my first official entry on this bad boy, this can be good, this can be bad, or it can just be.
I've had a lot on my mind.
My heart is heavy, but I dismiss it. Something has to change and clearly the change starts with me. I am distant, not because I want to be but because sometimes I have to be. I haven't really been talking to a lot of people. I guess I am just a little tired. Not tired of them, just tired of holding the phone...lol I guess I am getting older. Its time for me to grind.
Yea so everyone around me is SUCCESSFUL. I have been told that I am too hard on myself, but I think the problem is I am not hard enough otherwise I wouldn't feel the way I do. So here goes nothing, a new era a change. A better me. From school right down to my very physique... it begins.
I am different
I try to be less combative, more understand, slow to anger, slow to judge. I have just learned to let things be. And I am happy. My God I am happy.
Change can be retrospective, but I want mine to be introspectively living for today, with the hope of tomorrow, and with out the worries of yesterday.....
I just had a deja vu moment......hmmmmm
POETIC PROSE OF THE DAY:
The Journey that I seek is not yours
but it is my own
holding on to the holistic ideation of this thing called hope
I grasp for dear life not wanting to let go
wanting to be better than I am
wanting to stand stronger than the next man
thus starts my journey
slow and calculated
because I am scared
but I know it must be done
one
step
at
a
time....
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