About Me

Sugar Land, Texas, United States
People say it all the time...what you see is what you get, but its not true all the time. I am a complicated melody, and I don't think that people hear my tune all the time. Its pleasing to the ear, but can be interpreted in many ways. Turn the volume up, but not too loud because you might not be able to hear me over the music...

Friday, January 25, 2008

The Power of Blind Faith

At work and clearly I am suppose to be working, but I had to write this. A friend of mine sent me an e-mail with a message that I often times forget. I was thankful for the reminder...

So the email read as follows:

Do you know the legend of the Cherokee Indian youth's rite of Passage? His father takes him into the forest, blindfolds him and leaves him alone. He is
required to sit on a stump the whole night and not remove the blindfold until the rays of the morning sun shine through it. He cannot cry out for help to
anyone. Once he survives the night, he is a MAN.
He cannot tell the other boys of this experience, because each lad must come into manhood on his own. The boy is naturally terrified. He can hear all kinds of noises. Wild beasts must surely be all around him. Maybe even some human might do him harm. The wind blew the grass and earth, and shook his stump, but he sat stoically, never removing the blindfold. It would be the only way he could become a man!
Finally, after a horrific night the sun appeared and he removed his blindfold. It was then that he discovered his father sitting on the stump next to him. He had been at watch the entire night, protecting his son from harm. We, too, are never alone. Even when we don't know it, God is watching over us, sitting on the stump beside us. When trouble comes, all we have to do is reach out to Him. If you liked this story, pass it on. If not, you took off your blindfold before dawn.

Moral of the story: Just because you can't see God, doesn't mean He is not there. "For we walk by faith, not by sight."

Its like a child. A child doesn't know any better so they are forced to rely on their parent to guide them.

Its like air, we can't see it and at times we can't touch it but we know its there.

You know sight is deceptive. You can't see beyond the surface and as people always say things that look good aren't alway good for you. (kind of like that piece of cake I had for lunch...lol). We live in a world of cynics, and its hard to have faith in things that we can't see, touch or feel.

Do you think that if we had more faith in not only ourselves but others that the world would be a better place? Maybe this is wishful thinking on my part. I know you are going to tell me that all people have a hidden agenda, so its virtually impossible.

Man this faith thing is a trip. All I know is that when times get hard its all I have to rely on. Its a scary thing, relying on something that you might not be sure of. But when the one thing that you have been hoping and praying for comes to pass you cannot deny the power of such blind faith. God is a good God. He knows the desired of my heart and he know the needs of my soul, and I know that what he has in store for me is for me.

God, I can't see you, I can't touch you, but I know you are always there. And I have to apologize because sometimes I forget. Why? Because I get so caught up in what I am doing, and in what I want that I push you to the side, when you make me your constant priority. But this time you're my priority and relying and trusting in you is my goal, its a tug of war at times because I don't want to let go. But I am loosing my grasp, and this is my trust fall trusting that I will fall in the arm of the one who cares for me most....

-Signed
Walking by faith and not by sight...

Monday, January 21, 2008

It's Official I have gone soft..

Mood: Wanting....


Believe it or not I have a soft side. Yea I know....Go Figure!!!

A friend of mine is getting married. I can honestly say that I was worried for him for a bit, but God's Favor is AMAZING, he found someone that not only complimented him, but made him into a man. He has grown so much since he has met her and she has the most amazing spirit. I am really REALLY genuinely happy for them.

While looking at their wedding website, I have to admit I got a little misty eyed. Ok really misty eyed. I know I always act like I am disgusted by love, but man....when you see TRUE love, you can't help but want that same feeling for yourself. Its such an amazing emotion, it makes even the darkest of hearts see light.

India said she was ready for Love
and so am I
I have refused the idea of love for so long
now my wall is being chipped away
brick by brick
stone by stone
But I am scared
scare of what that emotion holds
if I let go
let go of the grasp that I have on my own heart
opening my hands to expose the softest part of me
bearing my soul
will it weather the storms that come
when my hands are full
will there be someone there to hold my umbrella
shielding me from harm
fearing the one emotion that might liberate me
i now know why MY caged bird sings
locked away from the emotion of love
it wants to be free to feel
to be to him
what he might be to me
and together
we
walk hand in hand
I am his support and he is mine
Love
Love is a beautiful thing...

I think that I might actually be ready....

Friday, January 11, 2008

Please Ask Me Why I Decided to Coach yet AGAIN?

So tomorrow is our first official CLUB tournament. Pray on that. I am nervous, for myself as well as the girls I just want them to do well. All I need is for them to be receptive to what it is that I am trying to teach them, more importantly my coaching style...I am a little more militant than people think...lol

Sunday, January 6, 2008

It's OVER!!

You have no idea, how very excited I am that New Year's has come and gone. It was such a stressful evening. With people canceling, me feeling like things weren't done and worried about if others were going to have a good time I couldn't have a good time myself.

So where do I begin with the New Year's Eve from hell? Well I suppose it really starts prior to the actual event. People with their indecisiveness DAYUM IT!! It was just so frustrating, all of the planning, time, energy and MONEY, that was put into the event and the simplest thing that you ask people to do they can't even do that..it is beyond annoying. I am retiring from the event planning business it is too stressful.

So these are the top 10 things that pissed me off about New Year's Eve:
10. Muddaeffas insist on not following directions i.e. mailing/emailing rsvp ON TIME
09. Incompetent business people. If pay you for a service and ask you to be there at a certain time, why the F are you NOT on time?
08. When you are late, what give you the uninhibited gall to argue with me about your payment.
07. People complaining about things that are beyond my control and then ask for discounts. How about this for a discount - F U?!
06. I couldn't adequately document the evening because of all of the stress.
05. Last minute cancellations. Do you not realize that this cost money, there for if you RSVP and DO NOT SHOW, I have to cover your cost as well?
04. Black people
03. I still had no sig-oth (significant other) for New Year's for the 26th year in a row...lol
02. I broke my muddaeffin beverage fountain *insert expletives*
01. After all of the stress, money spent, EVERYONE had a good time but ME, and I caught the flu...


But I suppose in the end they had a good time an that is all that matters. I mean we did ride a pretty fly party bus, and we did get some like SUPER VIP service, thanks to some of my boys. So all was not a complete loss. I think I will take a super hiatus after these series of events. We'll see how that works out.

As I said after all was said and done, I was kissed by the flu HAPPY NEW YEAR to me. *insert sadface here*. So I had to take 3 count 'em 3 days off of work (for those that know me this is CRUCIAL.) I literally took one for the team. And let me tell you the flu is NO joke, I was feeling pure exhaustion.

Now its back to business as usual. Everyone is back to their regular grind. I guess until summer hits.....It's bitter sweet, its always good to spend time with friends.

Now its time for the next step, so stay tuned, its going to be a one for the record books!!


Happy New Year!!!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008

Baby Rock is Here!!!

My friend Amber and her Husband, just had their first child, Rock Xavier Crawford. She sent me a picture and he's such a cutie. I am so excited for them!!! I know she is going to make a great mother, I guess Billy will be an ok dad as well..hahaha *wink*. No but really they are going to be wonderful parents. Welcome to the world Rock.

Luv Auntie Sandy.