New Beginnings

Its the Genesis!

This weekend a good friend of mine got married and it was fantastic. Just to overwhelmingly feeling of joy and love that filled the room. It made me want to get married. LOL one thing at a time I suppose.

Well today is the first day of my Graduate academic career. I haven't been in school in awhile so I am a little on the nervous side. I just pray that everything goes will and I know it will otherwise the lord would not have ordered my steps in the way that he has. So pray for me during these next few years. God is working a mighty work and I can't not wait to see the outcome. I'm off to class.

Begin week 1

-Signed old school in a new school trying to get schooled...lol

DFW - The Exhausted Edition

Ok so I am tired. No I mean really tired. I don't that in the last week that I have had a full nights rest. I suppose that is my own fault. Currently I am waiting to board my flight to New Orleans, for the marriage/mini reunion of the crew...did I mention that I a little on the tired side? I have just been going non-stop but I suppose that is a something that is to be expected with me. I like to go, it does not matter where or when, I just like to go, and when I am idle, by myself I that just gives me to much time to reflect on past occurrences. Often times these reflections lead me to one of my patented "moments", which are usually not good things. I might need to work on this. But I think idle time is boring. Or rather I am afraid of what might surface if left to reflect for too long. Anyhow I am rambling...I think its time for me to go. Until next time....

Idly I wait wondering
but I busy myself so that my wonder
saunters and moves me to a fast pace
paced so I can't face the things that I fear
but alas my saunter ceases and I am back to wondering
facing fear in the face
wondering what is to become of me
pacing so the negative doesn't catch up
running after the positive
I reach out and it ducks
but sometimes I catch it
and for a moment I am ok
then it escapes my grasp
and I am left to wonder
then saunter
then face fear again.

Apparently 8 is a number for change..I MOVED

So its the 8 month in the year 2008 and things are changing. I am leaving houston, starting school, and starting to see life from a different perspective.

This past weekend I moved to Fort Worth. I love my apartment, now I have to work on the educational and social aspects of life, but I am sure those things come with time.

My first outing was a little different than I imagined it. I should have been a time for reunions, laughs and good times, but I really just found myself quite agitated for whatever reason. For the sake of conversation I will charge it to the fact that I had just arrived and moved in most of my things and I was tired.

Fort Worth is a little slow, and a little removed from the social hub of the DFW metroplex. It has its highs and lows, but over all I think it will be an enjoyable experience. I am excited about starting school. For the first time in a long time I feel as though I have purpose and direction. I really do see great things for the future and I am truly thankful that God lit my path so that I could find my way.

I already feel a little lonely. I didn't think it would happen but I kind of miss Houston. I just think that the fact that people that I have been around for the past few years are not in close proximity makes me nervous, what will I do for fun?..lol

I'll be going to New Orleans for the first time, this weekend and I am excited....I get to reunite with my guys friends, who are AWESOME!! I think we are going to have a good time.

The saga continues...

It's been a Long time, but now I am back with the jump off..

Ok I know the title is a little on the lame side, but it was funny to me so I suppose that is all that matters.

So what has been up with me since I have been gone, lets see..

1. I am still single, but surprisingly happy and worry free (who would have thunk it...lol)

2. I still work at my job that I don't particularly like until the 15th then I am peacing out!!

3. During the month of July I had the pleasure of working with the National Youth Leadership Forum on Medicine and it was markedly one of the most eye opening experiences, and I LOVED IT!!

4. On August 16th I will officially be Leaving the Houston area and become a resident of the Dallas/Fort Worth Metroplex (YIKES....oh yea and GOOOOOOOOOOOO ROCKETS!!) ha ha ha

5. It is August 8th and I have still not packed for my move, I feel like I have a billion people see and no time to see them and that kind of makes me sad...

6. My boy KC is getting married in the NO and I am so excited because it is going to be a mini-reunion

7. My BFF finally realized what I have been thinking all along, and I almost feel bad

8. Last but not least...I am extremely bored at work right now.....oh well...back at it until next time.

Things are on the Up and UP...

Goodness it has been so long, so many things have happened.

Barack Obama is the democratic bid for the presidency

McCain bless his hear seems to be holding on for dear life....

I for the past few weeks I have been working with NYLF and I LOVE it.

I have found the meaning in life

And so many doors are beginning to open up..

Things are definately on the UP and UP

Stay tuned....

Man its been a LONG time...

Man it is has been a long time since I have been on here. I know not years but it has been long enough..so much has happened, things have changed.....The updates a coming be patient....

Things are never what they seem

I have had a hard lesson in reality and I have come to the conclusion that it sucks. Gone are the times of the cloudy haze and the bold sunshine. Gone are the days for youthful laughter and carefree days. I know too much, more than I would ever wish to have ever known. Now questions of when, where and why surround me. I am actually really disappointed. The pedestal that they stood on wavers and is crumbling...with each page that I read. I knew it was none of my business, but I kept searching and I kept digging. What I was looking for I don't know, but what I found I wish I could give back. My heart is heavy, and my view tainted. Is nothing left in this world sacred?

bitterly defeated in the idea of forever and love. I am not sure it exists, and that makes me sad. I don't want to fall victim to the same fate. So does that mean in order to protect myself from what might be that I continually shield myself a emotional recluse. Its going to take something short of a miracle to free my heart from its Alcatraz.