It's OVER!!

You have no idea, how very excited I am that New Year's has come and gone. It was such a stressful evening. With people canceling, me feeling like things weren't done and worried about if others were going to have a good time I couldn't have a good time myself.

So where do I begin with the New Year's Eve from hell? Well I suppose it really starts prior to the actual event. People with their indecisiveness DAYUM IT!! It was just so frustrating, all of the planning, time, energy and MONEY, that was put into the event and the simplest thing that you ask people to do they can't even do that..it is beyond annoying. I am retiring from the event planning business it is too stressful.

So these are the top 10 things that pissed me off about New Year's Eve:
10. Muddaeffas insist on not following directions i.e. mailing/emailing rsvp ON TIME
09. Incompetent business people. If pay you for a service and ask you to be there at a certain time, why the F are you NOT on time?
08. When you are late, what give you the uninhibited gall to argue with me about your payment.
07. People complaining about things that are beyond my control and then ask for discounts. How about this for a discount - F U?!
06. I couldn't adequately document the evening because of all of the stress.
05. Last minute cancellations. Do you not realize that this cost money, there for if you RSVP and DO NOT SHOW, I have to cover your cost as well?
04. Black people
03. I still had no sig-oth (significant other) for New Year's for the 26th year in a row...lol
02. I broke my muddaeffin beverage fountain *insert expletives*
01. After all of the stress, money spent, EVERYONE had a good time but ME, and I caught the flu...

But I suppose in the end they had a good time an that is all that matters. I mean we did ride a pretty fly party bus, and we did get some like SUPER VIP service, thanks to some of my boys. So all was not a complete loss. I think I will take a super hiatus after these series of events. We'll see how that works out.

As I said after all was said and done, I was kissed by the flu HAPPY NEW YEAR to me. *insert sadface here*. So I had to take 3 count 'em 3 days off of work (for those that know me this is CRUCIAL.) I literally took one for the team. And let me tell you the flu is NO joke, I was feeling pure exhaustion.

Now its back to business as usual. Everyone is back to their regular grind. I guess until summer hits.....It's bitter sweet, its always good to spend time with friends.

Now its time for the next step, so stay tuned, its going to be a one for the record books!!

Happy New Year!!!

Baby Rock is Here!!!

My friend Amber and her Husband, just had their first child, Rock Xavier Crawford. She sent me a picture and he's such a cutie. I am so excited for them!!! I know she is going to make a great mother, I guess Billy will be an ok dad as well..hahaha *wink*. No but really they are going to be wonderful parents. Welcome to the world Rock.

Luv Auntie Sandy.

New Year's Quickly Approaching

Ok so its like 2 am almost 3 in the morning and yes I am up (tragic). I'm stressed, stressed to the point of exhaustion, which is not good because I have so much to do. I think I am attempting to put myself in an early grave. I just want everything to go well. Pray for me.

A New Year = A New Me

A Friend of mine posted this quote:

“This is a time for reflection as well as celebration. As you look back on the past year and all that had taken place on your life, remember each experience for the good that has come of it and for the knowledge you have gained. Remember the efforts you have made and the goals you have reached. Remember the love you have shared and the happiness you have brought. Remember the laughter the joy, the hard work, and the tears. And as you reflect on the past year, also be thinking of the new to come. Because most importantly, this is a time of new beginnings and the celebration of life.”

~Taylor Addison 1989

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We make resolutions every year and every year we break them around week two (or maybe this is just me..lol). This year has been a very difficult for me; death after death, calamity after calamity. My faith wavered and still teeters from time to time, but I always come back, re-center myself and try to start with a fresh outlook. The outlook for the past year has been fresh, but not always bright. I have grown as a person, spiritually and emotionally. I have learned how to deal with certain situations and thus in the same respect learned how not to deal with others. Like many of life’s journeys it has been a year of lessons learned. I’ve fallen and been bruised and still have managed to get back up. I have stepped outside of my box and met new people and have seen people that I have known in a better light. I have learned to be less judgmental and more sympathetic. I have learned not to wear my emotions on my sleeve. I have learned to let go even when it is the most difficult thing for me to do. I have learned not to dwell on things of the past (although from time to time I slipped). I have learned to be slow to anger (what might have been the most difficult task for me). I have learned that I can’t be all things to all people. I by nature am a people pleaser; I like people to be happy even if it is to my own detriment. I have learned that all that I give of myself to others, I deserve that same courtesy back 40 fold and then some. Most of all I have learned to love, even when it hurts, love, even when the person on the receiving end refuses it, love. Love God, love myself, love my family, love my friends, and love those that wish me harm. It has been a looooong year. And I can’t say that I am sad to see it go, because I am not. I didn’t go to the mountain top this year, but I stood on a small hill, planting my mustard seed of faith, even when the enemy sought to steal my joy. I’m still living, breathing, and loving and that is a blessing from the most high God. So as I walk forward not looking back I pray that all that has happened has not been in vain. I am claiming victory for 2008, because I serve a God that never fails me.

To those that I have wronged
For those whose friendship I refused
For those that I was guilty of loving not enough
For those I was guilty of loving too much
It’s a new year and time to start fresh, after all its all about new beginnings…

Happy New Year!!!
May the Lord continue to bless you in your coming and your going

You are Legend, I AM THE PLAGUE

So its the day after Christmas and I am at work. Tired, and trying so very hard not to fall asleep. [[its not working very well]]

We went to an Alpha party last night, it was like old times (the afformentioned statement solidifies the fact that I am getting older and my legs don't hold up like they used too...lol *end disclaimer*) But this old head had a good time, even though it was hot and I felt like I was going to faint. The venue reminded me of a place that I went to one of my first college parties called "Notions"...lol Same sweating floor, but bigger and I didn't have on a pair of soulful pink foam slides (inside joke between me and some of my friends...lets just say tragic).

I'm really glad that the holidays are pretty much over with. As stated before I wasn't really in the holiday spirit. Call me the party pooper.

Other than that things are cool. Although I feel like one by one people are starting to avoid me. I don't know what I did. I don't know if I am so much sad, but rather interested in what the issue is..I suppose time will tell, all people have a reason for what they do and I may not ever understand it, but I have to accept it. I guess thats another way that I have changed.. Usually I would obsess and wonder what had happened or what I possibly could have done. I suppose all you can do is wish them the best.

I have to admit I am slightly worried about the New Year's Eve event. I'm not sure if I have bitten off more than I can chew. I have a pleasing complex that often times causes problems. I try to be all things to all people, and often times that does not work to my benefit. Bottom line I want New Year's to be memorable, and I want people to enjoy themselves....I guess I'll keep my fingers crossed. Things are coming together slowly but surely and I have t-minus 4 days to make sure that things come together in a cohesive manner, lets hope for the best.

Until the next entry...
-Working on being a better me for me in '08-

Signed
Apparently the New and improved human plague....lol

Let's Hear it fot Mini-Reunions

So while at work yesterday I got a text from a friend of mine Tracie from high school saying that she was going to be leaving town soon and that she was going to be out with some other friends somewhere in Village. I thought...what the heck. I called a few of my other friends and we rolled out.

Tracie likes to bar hop, not exactly my "thing" but I do like to be around people (well SOMETIMES). We all me up at this place don't ask me the name, because clearly I don't remember, and we were immediately met with a hint of culture shock. Definitely not my crowd, but everyone seemed like they were having a good time. I envy Tracie. I just love her energy, she never seems to get down and every time I speak to her she is up beat. She can make friends with anyone, people say that about me, but they have yet to meet the force that is T. Jones.

Anyhow meeting up with an old friend was good. She's pretty awesome.

The Fight of My Life

I'm still fighting. Maybe I didn't know it all, Maybe I wasn't strong enough, but I am a new creature in him. Thus begins the journey of the restoration of faith.

Ok so no one really knows it but maybe one or so people, but I have been really struggling with this faith thing. God and I have not seen eye to eye or heart to heart and for that matter we have been going at it with spiritual (or rather lack there of) fist of fury. I am human, I get upset, and when things don’t go the way that I think that they should I react accordingly. I have become a sort of spiritual recluse. And the image that you see to the left speaks volumes about my situation...I am literally in the fight of my life.

As of late I have been going through quite a bit, I really don’t expect anyone to understand, 1. because I haven’t really shared my issues, and 2. I’m not going to share my issues, so they have become the burden that I now currently have no choice but the bear. For a good while I have been questioning my faith, I guess I was in my pseudo garden of eden and I did it, I took the bite of the forbidden fruit and it has been down hill ever since. Nothing has gone right, and the only right that has happened has gone wrong, and so I am standing in the middle of the storm, not knowing if I am going to make it. I’m at war.

Yes I am sure that things could be worse, but I can’t put someone else’s misery or misfortune and gage it with my own, because it won’t measure up, because it can’t. We are different and we go through and deal with things differently. Bottom line, I felt like the man upstairs was punishing me. I don’t know what I did so wrong, I just know that its not fair, but what in the world is?

I tried to get away from the faith that I have held for so long why? Because I didn’t think that I believed in it anymore, because I don’t think that it believed in me. People have asked me to go to this church or that church, I have no interest. Friends quote scripture, but I find no solace in it and actually try to change the subject. But no matter where I went it just kept following me. Or rather HE keeps following me. And that was upsetting me. I just wanted to be left alone but it wouldn’t let up. From the radio, random conversation, to me just slipping (if you will), calling on the name of the Lord; it…correction He has surrounded me.

But in my attempt to escape the eyes of the Lord, he keeps pressing me. My coworker was feeling down about somethings and I of ALL people ended up being the person to minister to her, when I couldn't even minister to myself. How odd is that. Then at the office Christmas party, my boss asked if I would pray. All I could think is "Are you serious?"

I suppose there is some truth to the idea that God always surrounds us, and up until this week I don't think believed that. Sometimes I don't know what I believe. But I do know that he has to exist and he has a sick sense of humor. So I guess instead of asking why, ask him what more do you have for me today. The Devil is a liar and he has been preying on my weak spirit, and I am guilty because I have allowed it. We are the only one's that give power to such evil.

So, now I am fighting back, I know its not going to be easy, but it sure couldn't get any worse. My dukes are up, and I'm knockin' em out like Ali....so bring it.....